Ok so... I have been back with my husband for a couple months now.. Tryin to work things out... havn't been on much lately, but I might be on more now that its starting to get cold out.. Brrr. I hate the cold.. Have you ever just "settled" in life because you think it's the right thing to do? The only thing to save people you care about from getting hurt? I keep thinking someday my feelings will change and things will be alright again, but damn.. I dunno how much longer I can stand it. I'm a happy person in general.. well mostly.. but I'm having a big issue with being happy lately..I can't sleep.. not eating.. again.. it starts.. I was here at this same point this spring..and now.. Im back to being stressed again... ugh.. well.. anyway... tryin to find things that make me happy, and things that have made me happy in the past. feels like the last yr and a half has sucked my creativeness right out of me.. I am hopin to find that again.

I know.. I know.. everyone has problems.. I realize that.. not tryin to be whiny by any means.. but its the reason I havn't been on here much lately. I miss my friends on DA.